Farewell...

Taken at Permata Swimming Club 10.06am

I had not been training since last year's MSSPP which was on Feb 10'.

Exactly one year from now...

I questioned myself. 'Why do I still bother to join when I had stop training for such a long time??'

To tell you the truth. It was frightening to go back this world. It felt new to me after such a long time being apart from it.

Am I still even qualified to call myself a swimmer?

Will I embarrass myself out there?

Will people still remember me?

To tell you the truth.

I was afraid to go back to CSC because I felt like I had abandon it for such a long time.

I was afraid to see myself so lack of stamina compared to before.

I was afraid of this world which I once loved.

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When I was in primary, I really loved swimming.

Hell, all ever wanted to do was to SWIM!

Study was boring, school was boring, so was the extra co-curriculum activities!

Swimming is a challenge for yourself to strive to be better than you were before.

That's why it never fails to keep me entertained!

I know many of you may not understand what I'm saying.

But...I guess this is what happen when you really loved something and you'll feel different about it compared to those who don't!

It may not show as I am not a very good swimmer but just an average one...

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Coming back to this annual competition.

Seeing everyone trying their very best to earn the medal; to break their own best time.

It made remember what I once forgotten..

On the first day, I was terrified.

I really wanted to get a medal for it was 50m Backstroke.

But once the horn was blown, I was not as nervous as I was during the previous competitions that I joined.

I just told myself to do my very best.

After all, this IS my last year...

I even participated in 200m Freestyle which was on the 2nd day.

It was a challenge that I had to face as the last time I joined this event was roughly 2 years ago.

It made a scar in my memory...

At that time, I really thought that I would drawn...I won't be able to finish the race...it was a horrible experience.

And so, this year, I decided to join...to face what I once feared as it was my last chance to do so.

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I may not have a medal nor a certificate to prove that I've won anything.

But I will still say that I am a winner.

Saw this beautiful sky while waiting anxiously for my event.

Winning isn't just about the number of medals you've earn or how many certificates you've earn.

It's about you achieving something you've never achieve before.

When you do that, you will have a feeling of content inside of you.

Some people may not understand that and they will think of you as a sore loser when you say so.

That means, they are not winners as they do not appreciate what they achieved.

You are who you are.

You know what you want.

So, even if you did not win anything, but you've achieved something, give yourself a pat at the shoulder.

You are a winner.

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My mum was shocked that I did not get the last place in any of the events that I participated during MSSPP 11'.

Not surprised.

I bet everyone thought that I would be.

After all, I had not been training since last year!

Results came out:

Backstroke - 4th (4/13ppl)

Freestyle - 5/6th (5or 6/7ppl)

I was happy with the results even though I didn't get anything in the end.

But I was happy with it.

They were shocked to hear that I had not been training since last year and still got 4th and not last place in the events.

I guess, I'm an achiever cause I'm very sure that I had achieved something to mark the end of my last year in MSSPP.

And so, farewell and thank you, MSSPP.

For letting me feel, how being a swimmer is like again.

: )

-End.

Cosplay Photoshoot

We had been talking about this since the end-of-year exam... and finally...  FINALLY... FINALLY!!!

We have our Photoshooting session. 

XD

Truth is, it was very fun.

I had to rush doing my own epic failed    make up and wear me own wig because by the time I finish my part time job, it's already 4.30pm...

And the main thing that we need for the photoshoot is SUNLIGHT.

That is why I had to rush to do everything and try to do everything by myself as I planned to not stop cosplaying until I start to have visible wrinkles! OTL

So by then, I doubt I'd have anyone to help me with them and so I have to start learning to do things myself!

>: D 

My friend bought her Lavi uniform from another friend of...my friend.

LOL! Confusing~~ @@

My friend cosplayed as Anita-sama from D.Gray-man.

(For reference...) ---^

By the time we reached there, my friends and I felt really awkward.

Walking around in Straits Quay wearing this...

XD

But luckily there's a Christmas play going on as well. 

Which means that we weren't the only ones who aren't wearing normal clothings.

=w=

We started to our photoshoot at this swirly stairs.

It was really pretty~~ <3

We had to ignore lots of glancing and staring of the people over there on our to the area though...

And so, by the time we arrive, the sun was already slowly setting down...

Which means that my camera will go super blur as it's shutter speed isn't fast enough to capture enough amount of light for the photo...

I nearly gave up on this small wish project of mine...until...

We saw this man taking pictures of his girlfriend not far from where we're standing.

But what captured my eyes was what he was holding.... it was a DSLR with awesome lens!

I quickly went to him out of desperation and asked him if he could help take a few shots of me as my friends don't really know how to handle my DSLR.

He agreed. Surprisingly =w=

After a few shots, he finally said the magic-holy words : 'I don't mind spending 10mins to make a photoshoot with you guys.'

:D:D:D:D

And so, we began... from our mini-self-made photoshoot to a semi-real-awesome photoshoot!

X)

Lavi Bookman~!

Anita-sama~!

Kanda Yuu~!

My friend made her outfit herself.

Amazing isn't it?

X)

After all those serious stuff, we made random funny shots instead!

LOL!

Nice background,ne~~? =w=

Bishop Kanda! OTL

These random shots are taken by my another friend which did not cosplay that day as her uniform wasn't done yet...

X)

That is all.

Special thanks to my mum for fetching my friends and I around, my friends for cooperating and the kind hearted photographer!

>3< chu~~ (Eeew...)

Last but not least...

MERRY CHRISTMAS~!

>3<

Update

Date : 21st December 2010                                                     Weather : Cloudy

Well first of all, I just want to update my blog.
I actually went to Japan for the very first time this month.
It was very fun and all.
=A=;
But I'm just to tired to upload all the pictures and experience here right now...
Maybe some other time, ay'?

Well, since what had to lingering in my mind right now is about cosplay, I guess I'll just talk a few about it.
Cosplay is my life! surprisingly very fun.

I had the chance to do so last week during Comic Fiesta.
:D

It is a 2 days event.
It has artists' booth set up in the hall.
Cosplayers crowded outside of it.
Which was awesome!


To tell you the truth,
I had prepared for this cosplay for months!
But by prepare, it was not physically prepared... it was only sort of planned in my brain...
=A=
I had all wig and stuff ready minus the uniform .
Even tried posing with it.
XDXD

Tch...having headache just by planning for this...

Spot the Pink Raindeer~!!
: D

But my wig gave up on me last minute before CF...
;A;
So I had to use my real hair instead...

Since it was my first time cosplaying, I felt awkward and some tension all swelled up inside me.

Well, the main reason was that Kanda was not an unpopular character in the world of anime.

And as a fan Kanda myself, I really wanna try my best to not disappoint all the other Kanda fans out there by ruining his beautiful image!

Which is so freakin easy hard for me to do so...

After my sis talk me out of it(Snap myself out of lack of confidence), I manged to enjoy myself the whole day!
Well, one thing that I'm happy about is that by cosplaying as Kanda, I really don't have to try hard at all!
I'm just like him...in some sort of way...
I was sort of surprised to have ppl come to me asking to take Kanda's picture.
;A; Arigato~!
Or maybe it's just because I was the only Kanda there that day... *slaps self*


Had 2 mini sudden Photoshoot session with 2 people.
X)

XD
They looked like eye bags..

The cameraman said it looked Mysterious~~

Facial expression not Garang enough though...

I managed to get the pictures from the 2nd one...But I've forgotten to give the 1st dude my e-mail..
;A;
I guess I lost him in facebook...
=.=

Besides all that, I managed to earn myself a few new friends in Facebook.
: D

Kanda: "Moyashi..!"

Kanda looks kinda pissed while Lavi looks like he's enjoying himself.
XD

XD
Epic pose of Kanda and Gintoki!!!

It was all and all an exciting experience!

I would write the whole day if I could. But sadly I'll have to start work tomorrow...
The harsh reality of life...fufufu...but the best part is when I get my pay! :D




I guess that's all for today...
X)
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AFS Selection Camp 2010

Date : 31st July-1st August Weather: Fine/Rainy

While the memories I made there stays fresh in my mind, I've decided to type as much as I possible could remember to share you guys those interesting and educational experience I made there....

As what they say,"live is a never ending journey of knowledge", this camp is one of the example. Most of us would think of it as a game or just some activity to pass time while waiting to be interviewed. Well, for me, it is more than that. Playing those games, we learn to tolerate, that was the point of dividing us into groups. We learn to listen,share, and to understand. And voala! We get a result which everyone will be happy and proud of.

: )

In this camp, we learnt to socialize. It was really fun to see so many people with so many different characteristics/personalities. Well, the only problem was how can we remember 102 names in 1 1/2 days?! XD Well, I guess that's our challenge!

Most of us just remember by memorizing which state each of us came from or better yet, take a peep at their (dangling) name tags before starting a conversation!

All and all, it was all very interesting and exiting. I'll on to the details now, it'll be divided into 2 blogs, 31st and 1st.

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Date: 31st July 2010 Weather: Cloudy/Rainy

Had to wake up at 2am to get ready for THE DAY. Felt like a bold thief while carrying a big red beg over my right shoulder and holding my water bottle in the other hand around my flat.

After loading all the luggage into the car, my boat started sailing to neverland until we reach the hotel, Hotel Masuri. :D After arriving, my parents and I went to the lobby to put down my beg and they waited outside the hotel while I brush my teeth and wash up at the washroom there.

(I really fell like a traveler who just happened to stop by and clean up before continuing her journey)My hair was all messy and my face was...well, priceless(not in a good way)...

The camp started off with briefing for both parents and participants. After all those, we were introduced to all the volunteers and chaperons. After all and all,we were given talks again while 6 by 6 were being called out for interview. (doki doki! XD)

We had lunch and continued our day with games or should I say,Energizer. We played 'My Bonnie'. Whenever a word which has a letter 'b', we would have to sit down if we're standing; we would have to stand if we were to be sitting down. Sounds easy but trust me, it's tiring. XD

We were later on separated into 6 groups. Every group will be separated to 2 parts A and B. Each group will be given a title to talk about (About Malaysia) and all infos were to be written down on a sheet of majong paper. I was put in group 5B and the topic to talk about was "Interesting things in my Hometown". I wrote about Penang while other group members wrote about their own states. We have a total of 7 states in our group : Melaka, Kedah, Penang, Terengganu, Perak, Perlis and Kelantan (if I'm not mistaken ^^;). I didn't manage to give my speech as I was later sent for interview.

Waiting was the hardest part of all. And I walked in and saw the faces of those interviewers : ' This ain't gonna be beautiful..' (XD) They asked questions and they thought I had hearing problem as I could not exactly hear what they asked as I was sitting quite a distance from them.

XD

I guess it went...ok..?

After all that,I joined them for the games again. We played another energizer called 'My Big Fat Pony'. You have to skip around the hall and once the song stops, you have to dance in front of that person who's in front of you.(We are all standing in a circle btw) In the end, everyone would skipping together in one big circle~!!

Oh yeah, we will also have a session called Spotlight were the volunteers will shout "Spotlight" and whoever wants to talk in front of 102 students+6 chaperons+7 volunteers can raise up their hands. Well yeah, I raised up my hand while my mind is still totally blank. My speech goes like this: "Hi,my name is Kho Yi Ian (Takes out name tag) Y.I I.A.N,yes,Ian. (WTH?XD) The reason I think I should be chosen to go Japan and also WHY I want to go to Japan is because well, like what the previous girl said, I LOVE SUSHI KING! Yeah,the bento, the ebi, the salmon and all BUT besides all those, I erm...argh! I'm so nervous! (Start jumping setempat)Well,jumping can help you release your nervousness. (Crowd laughs) Well, it's true (still jumping) you should try it! (XD) Anyways, the other reason is because by going there, we can learn more about the culture and stuff. Yes, I do have internet but there are a lot of things that we sometimes have to experience it ourselves. Isn't that why all of us are here? (Crowd answers yes...(I didn't expect to answer actually XD)) And yeah, I can talk more but yeah...time...yeah so..erm..thank you.(bows and walks away *crowd claps*)

Isn't that all humiliating? XD

Ever since then, whoever I saw, they won't remember my name or state they'll just say "Hey, aren't you the one who was jumping during spotlight to release nervousness?" *Laughs slight/awkwardly* "Yeah...that's me..."*continues laughing awkwardly*

Otl..

Anyway, besides all that, we have to make a performance to show the different races of Malaysia. Our group decided to separate into 3 Malays,will sing 過年 ; Chinese, Indian dance;Indian, Hari Raya Song(If I'm not mistaken it's Suasana Hari Raya(?)).Well, I and another Chinese joined the Malays to teach them a few steps and singing. They know how to sing so it's way easier compared to the others. (XD)

Other groups did short plays. The winning group did a remake of the malay story about a guy who was once poor became a rich man. Despite that, when his mother came to see him, him did not admit her as his mother as he is rich and his mother is so poor.

XD

The remake version was AWESOME!

I won't get to tell all here. It'll be too long. I wonder if there's anyone who would post that video into facebook....(hmm...)

All and all, we finally get to go back to the room,have dinner (my room mates and I totally forgotten about dinner XD) And yeah. After dinner then we have the energizer called Big Fat Pony.

(I jumbled up half of the story)

XD

And so ends day 1 of AFS Selection Camp 2010.....

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(To be continued)